Which way… which way…

So, yet another trip to Texas this week, assuming that I can get Thursday covered. I have one friend I can ask that I know is available on that day.

And this one is paramount. I’ve got to get this guy out of my house. When it’s just talking and there are no external influences, it’s not that big of a deal, but I really do not have to tolerate being around someone who is that judgmental, obnoxious, and wrapped up in his own shit.

I’d thought about going down in two or three weeks, but that doesn’t work out so well for anyone else. Besides, I need my house back sooner rather than later so that I can start the serious repairs – and not on the house itself.

Since this whole debacle started, it’s been one crazy delay and upset after another. The kids are off of their schedule, almost no schoolwork is getting done, chores are completely hit or miss, and there seems to be an underlying sense of anger and resentment. Gotta nip that one in the bud… but at least I know what part is mine and what part is someone(s) else.

And then there’s NaNoWriMo next month. I’m trying to make the serious commitment to myself to write “Shooting Blanks” during November. I have the outline, I have the plot, I have the characters, and I’m hoping that having a collective excuse to write will enable me to make a little more of the time. If I can get more of the house handled between now and then, that’ll make it even easier. I wrote “Middle of Nowhere” in a month, why not “Shooting Blanks”? And all the other sequels?

I’m also struck with a difficult choice about the future. You know how much I want to pursue the Naturopathic Doctor path. I love it, I adore it, I’m damn good at it… but I’m fraught with the sense that if I take that path, it’ll be another case of earning and collecting all of these very effective and wonderful skills that don’t pay. I can’t afford an education that’s not guaranteed to pay me back.

And that brings us to the other option of going to school for the expressed purpose of being a teacher. As my sister Debbie mentioned, there’s a program that will pay for all college expenses if you promise to be a teacher in Texas. I love teaching, and I’m damn good at it. I think I’d want to teach junior high and high school math and science. My only reservation is about dealing with the administration of the school districts and the politics that go into it. < voice = "sarcasm" >You know how much I love that!< /voice >

What do you think? In Texas, I have a few more resources for getting help with childcare, not counting that a lot of classes can be taken online, and I might be able to place out of a lot. But is it worth it in the long run? I’d probably be making about the same as I’m doing now to start, but I’d have a lot more job security in the long run. Maybe that’s what I’m really looking for: some kind of security for the future.

ETA: This is the link to the TEACH program. See what I mean? Pretty sweet.

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  1. October 4, 2009

    i wish i had the answer for you.

    i honestly think you would be happiest being a naturopathic doctor. the advice you give on MM is so awesome. but i don’t know what the market for that is like in texas.

    i don’t think you would be happy teaching public school. the administration really seems to chew through people. a friend of mine who was a teacher in the Oakland public school system (a tough place for sure) got a survey from the district asking why there was so much turn over in new teachers. it got a good laugh. it seems that school districts ask for a lot but give no support. it blows.

  2. October 5, 2009

    On the nature of being a teacher…

    You’ve heard my tales. It’s been a very bumpy ride, and probably will remain so for a long time to come. There is only a nominal amount of security that comes from being a teacher; tenure, unless you piss off some parent, which everyone inevitably does at some point. I think you’d be in a much better position as a teacher than I ever could be, but what does that really say?

    However, and it is with the greatest reluctance that I say this—not because of you in any fashion, but because of how the profession is right now—I think you would make an excellent teacher.

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